guilt trips.

these are by far the best trips to be on isn't it?
people make you feel like the world's biggest idoit, say things to rub it in your face just when you're already feeling miserable.
is that a true attempt to help the situation or wad?
i don't get it.
maybe this is too high an order for me to comprehend.

i like to look and think the best of people. really i do.
but i can't do that all of the time.
i am human after all.
and i think i deserve some credit for that from time to time.
some allowance please?

how do you like to feel that anything you do is never gonna be good enough?
i just know that i can't seem to ever escape that ill-fate of being made to feel that way.
perhaps it is self-imposed.
shrugs. i don't know. can't tell.

things are not always easy to just speak your mind.
sometimes things just need to be internalised for a while.
in which case, i realised, i don't even know what's exactly wrong.
just don't feel comfortable.
like something is amiss.
simply hate that feeling.
but what to do, everyone goes through it don't they?
i know it'll make light someday but just not now because it's all gloom and doom at the moment.

do me a favour, whoever reads this, please don't ask me about it.
because honestly, i wouldn't know what to tell you either.